A matter of decision.

Goodness, I made some strange decisions about this book yesterday, but it turned out for the better (possibly). I really just turned two convoluted chapters into three very straight-edged ones and added a song. It seemed to change everything, all of a sudden the story hadn't dissolved into mess it had become a little bit poetic... gory situation became a little bit more 'touching'.

cheesy? maybe, but a bit of cheese is always nice. Especially mixed in with the havoc I've been trying to pen lately. It seems that when I wrote this synopsis sometime in the past, I didn't care to tone down the action.

One thing I have been fighting with myself over is narrative. The story is written in third person, but i recently have come to question that decision. My protagonist is very internal, it would almost make more sense and certainly be easier for me if I wrote her story in first person. However i'm not sure if I like writing in first person. Sometimes I feel like I write better in first person, others I feel it sounds all wrong. I toyed today with the idea of editing two books simultaneously, one in first, one in third. Either that's insane or it's the closest I have come to a solution.

I suppose as the book is slowly encroaching that final chapter, I am now making my final decision's. Characters that weren't supposed to die are on the brink, (or perhaps past it). I have some truths to reveal and others to hide. I promised myself that my protagonist would learn something vital about herself before the close of this book. I now have to delicately begin weaving it into the story.


A friend asked recently If I had based any of my characters on real people, (Kristen I believe?). Truth is no, no I haven't but then It isn't really that simple either. There are some characters which I have in a sense 'given' to people. I have a couple of characters like that.


Just re-read the first hunger games book cover-to-cover in eager anticipation of the film. I just took it off the shelf and devoured it. yum.

Iv'e not been sharing much story spoilers here, sorry i suppose...

Its not that I don't want to share, I really just don't want people to have to hear about it unless they truly want to. I don't want to be forcing my story onto people who don't want to know about it, I despise the idea. If people want to know I am all to happy to sit and divulge. come find me, or just keep reading. Because I have a new synopsis coming very soon.
I do clutch this story very close to my heart, few have looked upon it's drafted words. When an eight year old idea starts to take shape, that's bound to be the outcome.
In saying that however, those people who genuinely show an interest never hear the end of it. (apologies)..
I should mention Sam, who walked with me in the hills and heard a very detailed version of the synopsis. Mainly though I should mention my wall (Oliver) who next to me knows the most about this story, thanks to a very long series of fantastic emailing (because you can't really re-build a world without first establishing a solid wall).


STILLL considering the blog unfinished. sorry about that. that's why i keep changing things around. I understand that it isn't entirely user friendly. sorry. Enough from me. follow me here and there (twitter) xxxx